No, I don't think he has. You've been working very hard to try and keep things sane. While I don't agree with you about a lot of things, I know that you've been trying to do what you think is best for everyone.
You're one of the fairest people I've met, Flynn. You shouldn't doubt yourself so much.
I didn't see the reason to tell anyone. Like I told Yuri, I went around destroying the blastias because I wanted to.
My father developed that formula and it's dangerous. It's something that needed to be done, so I did it. That's all.
You know very well why it's important to listen to doubts about myself. I can't simply trust that I will always do the right thing. That was a naive way to think, clearly, because I didn't. Even now, I should be trying with all that I have to get home and fix this!
I'm not saying that it's not important to doubt yourself. We all do.
You let it eat away at you, however.
You do the best job that you can with the information you have. Sometimes bad things happen. That's how life works. And you can't fix everything. Especially not alone. That kind of thinking will make you no better than Alexei. That's why Ioder, Estelle, Yuri and the rest of us are working and helping in the ways we can. We didn't create this issue, but we are stuck fixing it. So, we're doing what we can when we can. That includes you.
As far as my father's research goes... I can understand why he started it, but it's flawed and it's been abused. There's no accounting for the way that the excess aer effects the rest of the world. And there aren't enough Entelexeia to help fix the aer krenes thanks to the Great War. Ba'ul, Krones and the others can't keep up with the activity. And, well, Alexei murdering the Entelexeia for their apatheia certainly didn't help.
I should have asked that first. This is all very scattered. Thank you. For confirming that, and for reminding me of that truth. That's something Yuri and I had talked about, here, but... I had forgotten it. Or, maybe, not learned it. At home.
I suppose that you weren't really carrying out your mission alone? You had Ba'ul to help.
I can see how you'd think that. He's not exactly the easiest to talk to, even for me, but he has a lot of reasons to hate the humans of Terca Lumireis, Flynn.
Well, the Imperial family forgot a lot of what they were doing over the years and then just didn't tell the rest of the humans why blastia are dangerous.
So, I guess it rests on the head of them, but Ioder and Estelle were just as in the dark as anyone else. If the Empire hadn't maligned the Entelexeia during the Great War, I'm sure that they'd have learned sooner what they were doing was wrong.
But I have a feeling that some people wouldn't care either way, so long as they were on top. Yuri wasn't wrong to get rid of them because they'd just keep abusing those around them.
Increasingly, I believe I feel the same way. I may wish that there had been another way, and that I had been able to keep my promise to change things for the better, but looking at things in the light of how things are, rather than how I wished they would be?
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You're one of the fairest people I've met, Flynn. You shouldn't doubt yourself so much.
I didn't see the reason to tell anyone. Like I told Yuri, I went around destroying the blastias because I wanted to.
My father developed that formula and it's dangerous. It's something that needed to be done, so I did it. That's all.
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I imagine it is difficult.
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You let it eat away at you, however.
You do the best job that you can with the information you have. Sometimes bad things happen. That's how life works.
And you can't fix everything. Especially not alone. That kind of thinking will make you no better than Alexei. That's why Ioder, Estelle, Yuri and the rest of us are working and helping in the ways we can. We didn't create this issue, but we are stuck fixing it. So, we're doing what we can when we can. That includes you.
As far as my father's research goes... I can understand why he started it, but it's flawed and it's been abused. There's no accounting for the way that the excess aer effects the rest of the world. And there aren't enough Entelexeia to help fix the aer krenes thanks to the Great War. Ba'ul, Krones and the others can't keep up with the activity. And, well, Alexei murdering the Entelexeia for their apatheia certainly didn't help.
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I should have asked that first. This is all very scattered. Thank you. For confirming that, and for reminding me of that truth. That's something Yuri and I had talked about, here, but... I had forgotten it. Or, maybe, not learned it. At home.
I suppose that you weren't really carrying out your mission alone? You had Ba'ul to help.
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Ask what you need to in whatever order you need to. I don't mind. If I don't want to answer you, I won't.
Ba'ul and I worked with Phaeroh too. We were never working by ourselves.
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So, I guess it rests on the head of them, but Ioder and Estelle were just as in the dark as anyone else. If the Empire hadn't maligned the Entelexeia during the Great War, I'm sure that they'd have learned sooner what they were doing was wrong.
But I have a feeling that some people wouldn't care either way, so long as they were on top. Yuri wasn't wrong to get rid of them because they'd just keep abusing those around them.
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He wasn't wrong.
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You just didn't know exactly what it is that really needed to be fixed.
Now, you know the whole system is just broken.